Roundabouts

We have a new roundabout in front of my work. It has 2 lanes. AND EITHER I DON'T KNOW HOW TO USE IT OR NO ONE ELSE DOES. Sad when I'm constantly in this predicament....

I've asked lots of people. I looked on the Internet. I've thought long and hard. I think that the outside lane MUST turn right at the next outlet. I think that the inner lane can turn whenever they want. That seems most logical.

It doesn't work that way though.



See, I get green car. But yellow car CONFUSES me. Shouldn't she turn right ONLY, at the next right? Because what if green car was already in the roundabout (before either yellow or green were there) and wanted to turn BUT YELLOW CAR WAS GOING STRAIGHT?????? What happens when green and yellow collide?

I DON'T KNOW. I HATE NOT KNOWING.

I think the outer lane should be specified as ONLY turning immediately. That's how it is at other roundabouts around here.

Because I don't know whether to yell and curse at yellow cars or apologize.

Sorry for all the caps.

Obsession

I easily obsess. Things, ideas, topics, stuff.

Let me just tell you, when I married J, I thought it was so funny (code word WIERD) that he would research items out the wazoo before making a purchase. Like when we went to a new restaurant, he'd pop up with the fact, "They serve the best lobster bisque here." And I'd look at him and say, "You researched this place, didn't you?" And I'd think he was odd. The man researches EVERYTHING. I told him when we get pregnant or have kids, I'll send him to the comp to see if something is normal or to find a solution to a prob. BECAUSE HE'LL FIND 12 SOLUTIONS BACKED UP WITH SCIENTIFIC RESEARCH.

And I thought that was odd.

Then I realized I can get VERY obsessed with ANYTHING. I've always been this way. Each mid-September, I go w/ my mom and sisters for a girl weekend in New Harmony, Indiana. I am SO excited everyday of the year, each year, and the whole summer (daily), I say to J, "You know what will be nice? NEW HARMONY." Just ask him. EVERY SINGLE DAY.

And sometimes I like to spend HOURS at work, just getting things in order. I could leave. I don't need to make this document for 10 YEAR OLDS look perfect. And when I wanted to grow a garden, I read every book/website imaginable. I know the names of 12,000 flowers. And when I wanted to be organized, I read everything. As a kid, I'd have 20 books spread all over my bed (with me in it) over one topic. I heart topics!!!!

My new favorite genre, as of 2 years ago is non-fiction. This greatly aids with obsession. I've got books on germs, flowers, veggies, organic everything, health, food, local food, vegetarian food, house decor, sewing, organization, environment, etc.

The sad thing is, sometimes my obsessions fade. Sometimes I get lazy and don't stick with it. Or maybe it's just that I now know EVERYTHING about that topic and have to move on!!!

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

She's So Fine:)

Just a note to say: My violin is back and it is as if I haven't seen a good friend in months. Oh, I missed it!! All I want to do tonight is play but I can't forget J's poor ears need a break every once in a while;)

My Brain

This is how my head felt when I left work today at 4:00:

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It imploded quietly for a while. Nothing remains. But a NAP will restore me!!!!!!

Death

Preface: I'm sorry if I offend you, whoever reads this. I don't like to filter my thoughts for your benefit if I'm writing in my blog. If I am offensive, please don't read me anymore. I won't mind. I don't like having to worry about what people will think of every word I write. Thank you very much, thank you very much!! That's the nicest thing anyones ever done for me!


Americans have all these empty yards - plant something, build something, or bury someone. Makes sense. -Andrew- USA


As I'm sure everyone knows, I think it is very important to take care of our planet and ourselves. Let's keep things as natural and simple as possible and chances are we'll be healthy. And as long as we keep ourselves healthy, there's not much intervention that should be needed for normal events such as birth, colds, or death. Babies come out of people everyday, let's not make it frightening emergency. Colds happen all the time so why are antibiotics overused? Fever is our body's way of fighting germs. LET IT BURN. Hehe. Death, though it eventually happens to EVERYONE, is nowadays masked with a life like body, impenetrable coffin, and somber cemetery. This is not how I like things.

But some day I will die. And here's why I'm telling you this: The New York Times ran an article about home burials. Interesting! I've read about green funerals, simple caskets, and wooded, natural cemeteries. But this was different.

I've talked with J lots of times and don't know if I want to be buried or cremated. I've always been enamored with tombstones and think I'd like to have one some day. If I had to. On the other hand, I hate wasting things and if I'm dead, why should I waste space? A rotting body doesn't need a hole to rest in. And cremation is cool. It means you will drift in to someone's yard, on their trees, or in their lungs. Hehe, how cool to say: I'm in your nose!!!

BTW, DONATE YOUR ORGANS, YOU WON'T NEED THEM AFTER YOU DIE.

But, if I was buried in my backyard, in a simple coffin, with a nice tombstone that J in his profound grief composed, I think it would be nice. Except my backyard is tiny. You'd trip over me every time you walked out there.

And, if one day J were to die before me, I think I'd like to wash him and dress him. I'd like to touch him for the last time, just him and me. I'd want to cry over him and talk to him and love him before never seeing him again. I'd like only loving hands to prepare him and nothing unnatural used to ready his body for burial. I'd like him to be with me and our family before I'm all alone. I'd like him to always be close to me, even when he's gone.

After saying al this, I don't know what I'll actually do since I'm a death noob. I've never had anyone in my immediate family die. I've only experienced 'easy' grief. I've never had a baby but I have had colds and fevers. I usually like to suffer. J got me a $10 bottle of cough syrup last year. I took 1 dose. $10. I would rather cough. And tell everyone else what they should do through this, my insignificant blog. Thank you for listening. ~bow~


The difference between the NYT and a tabloid:
A tabloid: MAN BURIES FAMILY IN YARD
NYT: Home Burials Offer an Intimate Alternative

Update on Me

23 out of 32. That's how many goals I've accomplished this year. Not too shabby. I got a 78% on life this year! SCORE!!! Considering I added in 2 new hobbies and have been happily maintaining them, I think I get at least a C+ (maybe even a B-, what do you think?). I'm a better person this year!

I really love playing my violin! It makes me very happy though I'm not that great at it. Each time I practice, J tells me I'm sounding so much better. I think he's being a little nice but it is nice not to be confined to playing songs like 4 Shorts and 1 Long. Having that one stuck in my head was a little dull. I had to sing it to J a lot for a while since it was stuck in my head. Imagine me singing 4 long notes and then one short one. ENDLESSLY.

My repertoire now includes Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star, Edelweiss, and Mary Had a Little Lamb. So now I sing those to him. Along with some of my other favs: New World Symphony, The C# Finger Game, and A String Mixer. And, oddly enough, I love playing scales. I think I hated doing those on the piano.

Yesterday, J finished tweaking our wedding video and I finally got to watch it after 2 years! I didn't realize how much I smiled. I mean seriously, I SMILED SOOOO MUCH. Most of what I remember about my wedding is stress. Stress over getting everything ready, doing a TON of it myself (w/ the fam), and wondering what the heck I was getting myself in to. Yesterday I was sad that I didn't remember that I smiled so much. I need to revamp my wedding memories. It makes me smile right now to think of it.

And here's something I didn't know would happen: I love J 12,000 times more today than I did when we got married. We were talking about this and how I wish we could have another wedding (now that I REALLY love him). Of course, how will I feel 2 years from now? I think maybe next year we should have a giant anniversary party, kind of like a fake wedding, during which I can feel like I'm marrying him again.

Belle and Sebastian are regaining their spot as my favorite band. Sorry Killers, Lizzy overdid you.

My Pets

The Official Standard of the Miniature Schnauzer describes temperament as "alert and spirited, yet obedient to command. Friendly, intelligent and willing to please. They should never be overaggressive or timid. Usually easy to train, they tend to be excellent watchdogs, with a good territorial instinct, but more inclined toward vocal notification than attack. They are often guarded towards strangers until the owners of the home welcome the guest, upon which they are typically very friendly to them; unlike some of their terrier cousins, they are not typically aggressive. However, they will express themselves vocally, and may bark to greet their owner, or to express joy, excitement, or displeasure. In German, the verb schnauzen means to snap vocally (as in repartee,) or to give lip to something, or to talk back.- Wikipedia

<sup>I am happy at least one of my pets is normal. Sadie fits the bill PERFECTLY for her breed. Spock, not so much. Today I get to clean up the vinegar/baking soda mixture I poured over a section of carpet in an attempt to rid the floor of URINE. Yep, my cat pees on the floor. But he hasn't done it for nearly a month now. A MONTH!!!!! We're all very excited!

In case you were wondering, here's a pic of a toilet trained cat.</sup>